I got another letter!

So this week hasn't been all that good, I kept having the feeling something was wrong with someone and I didn't know who it was.
I was sitting with my parents in the living room I had my laptop on and I was playing around on Pinterest and Facebook and stuff and then I had this sick feeling someone I knew was hurt or something was wrong and I didn't know what happened. I told my mom about it and she told me to text my siblings about it and ask them if they were okay. Tedi texted back and said they were fine so I texted David and of course he didn't answer but I figured if something was wrong with them I would have heard something. I decided that it had to do with one of the missionaries I'm writing.
I got a letter this week and it wasn't from Ryan which I thought was weird because I just sent him a package and I thought it would get there before P-day, oh well...but anyways I got a letter from one of the other missionaries I'm writing.
His name is Elder Holt and I got his address from the group I'm on on Facebook. The best part of the letter was that he sent a picture! It was awesome and I showed it to my mom and she said he looks like Logan, my brother in laws brother, and a little bit like Chase, my brother in law which I thought was funny. But his letter scared me, he had a scary experience this past week and so I think that's where my bad feeling came from, he's okay obviously but it still was scary. Anyways this is really random but I just needed to tell someone about it and what better place than my blog!

Getting a Wish Granted

Sorry most of my posts have been about Ryan lately but then again that's my life right now. I've been having some doubts about whether me and Ryan would actually work out if/when he comes home. And I've been praying about it a lot lately and when I got a letter today and Ryan feels the EXACT same way, I'm SO glad. So I've decided to just be friends with him, what we've always been but then I figured out that we will only be friends, and i'm totally okay with that. I'll keep everyone updated though!

High School Again

I feel like I'm back in high school. There is so much drama going on that it doesn't even feel real. First Ryan writes me on a day that's not P-day and apparently his Mission Pres has a rule that they can't write unless its P-day so that's awesome. He broke a rule. So i've been stressed out about that, and school(because I"m a freshman its hard being in college) and finally the straw that broke the camels back was that my so called best friend doesn't want anything to do with me anymore.
Awesome right? Its like the drama I never had in high school. Yeah that's right I never had drama in high school. I tried to keep myself out of it because I knew from my sisters experience that having drama in high school is hell. So I've tried my best to keep out of it. I don't want it and I don't try to create it. It comes to me. My so called best friend texted me yesterday saying that "You're dragging me down" "And until you learn to be happy and listen to me I need a break." Say what? I always thought that our friendship was one that if we had a problem we could talk it out. Apparently not. But I was talking to my other friend and she was saying that it's all this one girls fault. That this one girl has always had a problem with me and that I'm always depressed and I'm super self centered and its all about ME ME ME!
On this blog I can make it all about me, why? Because its my blog and I can talk about whatever I want. But anyways I always thought that our friendship was one that we could talk about it and I just feel like crap sometimes because she was listening to someone else to get advice from and an opinion of me.

I just want to tell my readers out there that IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME TELL IT TO MY FACE! I DON'T WANT A FREAKING TEXT MESSAGE SAYING YOU "WANT A BREAK FROM OUR FRIENDSHIP!" WE'RE NOT A COUPLE STOP ACTING AS THIS IS A RELATIONSHIP! Sorry I just had to get that off my chest.

Carolin out!

Ps. I'm SO happy and I feel like a weight I didn't even know was there has been lifted off of my shoulders.

Weird Boy

So remember how a couple of posts ago I said I got Dear Jane'd? Well apparently I didn't......right that totally makes sense(not). Well I got two letters from him this week and kind of explained everything. But I was pretty sure I was Dear Jane'd. I had Sidney even read my letter and she thought I got Dear Jane'd too.

Apparently I didn't. So I'm still officially in the waiting game, oh wait no I'm not because he dropped another bomb on me in my last two letters, that he's coming home. He's only been out 2 months, almost 3. Great right? Not really. I told him in two letters that I don't want him home unless its for medical reasons.

Sidney has said that he wants to do everything that isn't what I'm expecting. First he told me he was going on a mission. Next he told he loves me. Third he told me he loves another girl and what I thought was Dear Janeing me. And now Fourth is that he told me he's coming home. Sidney said that last he'll come home and tell me he's marrying someone who's not me.

So he's a weird boy and I just need to figure it out. He's pissing me off. But that's all for now. I'll let you know what's the next crazy thing he's told me.