Random Pictures from My Phone

Please don't mind part of my car in the first picture, but anyways I took these pictures because I was looking out my window driving(you'd hope so right?) but I was having a not so good day. It didn't seem like anything was going right and then I saw this beautiful scenery. I don't know why I thought it was so pretty but I just did.

As soon as I took these pictures my phone died. Go figure right? But I'm happy I was able to take these pictures and have it help lift my day up.

The Eights

8 fav. TV shows:
1. The Office
2. Four Weddings
3. Project Runway
4. Say Yes to the Dress
5. Bones
6. Teen Mom
7. Gilmore Girls
8. Medium

8 places I love to eat: (not in any kind of order)
1. Chipotle
2. Zupas
3. Noodles
4. Sonic
5. Subway
6. Panera Bread - but utah does NOT have one! grrr it's my favorite.
7. Olive Garden
8. Costa Vida

8 things I did today:
1. Woke up
2. Painted a board for my closest
3. Texted Tedi
4. Blogged
5. Showered twice
6. Read blogs
7. Watched Say Yes to the Dress
8. Drank a Dr. Pepper

8 things I am looking forward to:
1. December (the semester will be over)
2. Thanksgiving!
3. Go to the Temple
4. Having money
5. To be in my bed- sleeping...
6. Getting good grades in school
7. Christmas
8. To be finished with math


8 Things I love about FALL:
1. Jumping in a pile of leaves.
2. Thanksgiving
3. The color of the leaves changing
4. Being with Family
5. Carving pumpkins
6. Hot Chocolate from Starbucks
7. Covering up more
8. Knowing I'll almost be finished with 2011 soon


8 Things I WISH for:
1. To start dating
2. Having more money
3. To be happy with my life
4. To know that I'm doing good in school
5. To be okay with my body
6. Being more creative
7. Have school all paid for
8. To be able to get married in the temple to the love of my life

Going to Concerts

(There was a naughty swear word I don't think anyone wants to read)

Going to concerts has always been my thing. I love buying the tickets and anticipating the concert and I love going and hearing really good loud music. So when my friend Angela and I were talking about going to the Anberlin I got really excited. Tuesday Angela started talking about going to go get the tickets I wanted to go and get tickets because I really wanted to go. So we got our tickets and its in a couple of weeks and I'm SO EXCITED!!!!

Staring.....and Rolling Backpacks

In high school no one would stare at me. I don't know if this is weird but I was used to having no one stare at me. Then I started college and EVERY one stares at me. I'm not lying! Its so weird and creepy. I keep thinking do I look okay? Is my hair crazy? Do my bangs look that bad? And I don't know why it is. If anyone has any experience with that I would appreciate some advice.

What's up with all of the rolling backpacks at college? I mean I can understand why a few people have them because they are older and they probably can't have that much weight on their backs but some of these people are my age! I think that they're weird and I don't like them at all. I would like to have a protest to ban rolling backpacks haha. Just saying.

Creeper Story

Okay so this story happened during the summer and it was a really creepy experience for me. So I went to get gas before I went to get my hair done, which I still need to take pictures of, but I was pumping my gas and I saw the guy at the other pump (see picture above) and he started talking to me

Him: Hi how are you?
Me: Good
Him: That's good you look really nice today
Me: Thanks
Him: Your welcome. So do you live around here?
Me:Yeah I live here.
Him: That's nice, you look really nice today
(At this point I'm getting pretty creeped out because he's the age of my parents and I wanted to get out of there fast. Also my car was almost finished getting filled up)
Me: Thanks
Him: So is there a number I can call so we can go out?
Me: Um I'm only 18
Him: That's still enough to go out.
Me:(while I'm walking away) I have a boyfriend.

That was the creepest moment of my life. And I talked to my parents and asked them if it was okay if I lied then and they said yes that it was okay that I lied. Right there is one of the reasons I hate filling up my car. Because of the creepers.

Whats happening.....

I know everyone is dying to know (cuz I have SO many readers) but I've kind of stopped waiting for Ryan. I know that just a couple of weeks ago I was head over heels and so happy waiting but my last letter helped me make my decision.

From the very beginning I felt like everything was too good to be true. He wanted to date me when he got home badly. He was so nice and it seemed too good to be true and it was. He basically was playing me from the very start. He has another girl waiting and he basically told me in his last letter that I shouldn't wait anymore, that he wasn't going to date me really. That I should take any opportunity to wait and marry and hopefully it'll be before he gets home so he doesn't have to deal with me when he gets home.

To say I was upset was an understatement. I was so upset and mad at sad and I cried and it was just crazy. There should be a statement that says you shouldn't write missionaries when your pissed as heck cuz that's what I was. It just upset me so much that he had played me the entire time and I really couldn't do anything about it.

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Wrong....

I feel as though something is wrong with me. I'm in college right? These are supposed to be the best years of my life and it doesn't feel like it. I talk to all my friends who are in college with me and even people who go to school with me and I feel as though I haven't met as many people as everyone else has. I mean I talk in most of my classes but its not as though I see any of the people in my classes outside of class because I live 20 minutes away from school because I life with my parents. I know that it'd be different if i was living with roommates but even Sidney is meeting people. So what's wrong with me? I guess I'm more of an introvert than I thought. If anyone has any advice PLEASE let me know what to do.

Because you know what? Waiting sucks

(found this on pinterest)

I know most people have heard this story from me but I think it's a great story. Anyways I've been writing my friend Ryan since July when I found out he was on his mission that same month.
Here's some back story I met Ryan when I was a junior in high school and he was a senior we were in seminary class together and since in that class we never changed seats I never got a chance to sit by him. But I never payed any attention to him that much, except when he went up to give the devotional. I loved the scriptures he gave they were super spiritual and inspirational.

So apparently from what I remember he had always thought I was cute but never had the guts to talk to me, but on the last day the seniors were in class he sat next to me and he asked me for my number, he told me later that night that he didn't want to not graduate without having talked to me.
After that we talked almost every single day via texting, and we went on a date one night because my friends told me I needed to find a date. And then we saw each other one other time he came to see me one time at lunch when he wasn't working or had school. That was the last time I saw him.
Well one day during the summer I was on facebook and I was trying to look at my messages but the top button wasn't working so I clicked the one on the side. I noticed I had some other messages which I thought was weird so I looked at it and I noticed I had a message from Ryan Parry. I read it and I was so upset I cried for like an hour because I wanted so badly to be able to talk to him again. He reported to the MTC July 13th and I read it the 18th.
I did what the picture said I found a way. I was able to get on a website and I wrote him a letter in the hopes he'd want to write me. We've been writing ever since. I know this is going to sound crazy but I've never been happier than when he writes me or I write him.