High School Again

I feel like I'm back in high school. There is so much drama going on that it doesn't even feel real. First Ryan writes me on a day that's not P-day and apparently his Mission Pres has a rule that they can't write unless its P-day so that's awesome. He broke a rule. So i've been stressed out about that, and school(because I"m a freshman its hard being in college) and finally the straw that broke the camels back was that my so called best friend doesn't want anything to do with me anymore.
Awesome right? Its like the drama I never had in high school. Yeah that's right I never had drama in high school. I tried to keep myself out of it because I knew from my sisters experience that having drama in high school is hell. So I've tried my best to keep out of it. I don't want it and I don't try to create it. It comes to me. My so called best friend texted me yesterday saying that "You're dragging me down" "And until you learn to be happy and listen to me I need a break." Say what? I always thought that our friendship was one that if we had a problem we could talk it out. Apparently not. But I was talking to my other friend and she was saying that it's all this one girls fault. That this one girl has always had a problem with me and that I'm always depressed and I'm super self centered and its all about ME ME ME!
On this blog I can make it all about me, why? Because its my blog and I can talk about whatever I want. But anyways I always thought that our friendship was one that we could talk about it and I just feel like crap sometimes because she was listening to someone else to get advice from and an opinion of me.

I just want to tell my readers out there that IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH ME TELL IT TO MY FACE! I DON'T WANT A FREAKING TEXT MESSAGE SAYING YOU "WANT A BREAK FROM OUR FRIENDSHIP!" WE'RE NOT A COUPLE STOP ACTING AS THIS IS A RELATIONSHIP! Sorry I just had to get that off my chest.

Carolin out!

Ps. I'm SO happy and I feel like a weight I didn't even know was there has been lifted off of my shoulders.